Karlos Williams is disappointed in himself.
The Bills running back received a four game substance abuse suspension from the NFL just before the start of training camp.
“I put myself, my family and my team in a bad spot,” he said.
The explanation for how things went bad is pretty simple.
“Being a young guy, a young kid, just making bad decisions. Not thinking things through. I think that happens to a lot of people coming into the NFL,” Williams said. “They have good success and kind of go off the hinges just a little bit. That happened to me.”
Despite the suspension, Karlos still has the support of his locker room.
“It’s everybody. It’s always a hand out. There’s always somebody there to have a shoulder to lean on,” he said. “From the time I got the news to the time now, I always have support. I should have used that support before I made my mistakes.”
Williams ran with the injured guys during the Bills first practice Saturday. He’ll spend much of training camp trying to work himself back into shape after showing up over weight for June mini-camp.
Rex Ryan isn’t happy with Karlos’ current weight, but the plan was always to take it slow.
“We also weren’t going to rush him back, give him an unrealistic goal to report to camp in and all of a sudden he’s (hurt),” Ryan said. “We had that last year with Boobie Dixon. He went out for one day, passed the conditioning test, blew every muscle and that type of stuff; it was unrealistic weight.”
“I’m not really a big person on talking about changing, it’s all about showing people,” Williams said. “Showing my family, showing my friends, the ownership, the coaches, my teammates, definitely earning my teammate’s trust back.”
Williams says he’s close to the weight he wants to be, but there’s no timetable for when he will be completely back in shape.
He made it clear he’s doing everything he can to get there. He’s changing his diet and working out as much as possible.
“This team invested a lot of time in money in me,” he said. “It’s time they get that back.